Cruise 2011

5.14-5.22

MEXICAN RIVERIA CRUISE
CARNIVAL SPLENDOR
(Picture OverLoad) as you can tell from the pictures we had a BLAST!! Can't wait for the next trip!

 Brushing out Teeth in a nasty gas station bathroom

 Six Flags Magic Mountain

 Ready to Set Sail (Long Beach, CA)

 Our Frist Dinner Night

 Formal Dinner Night

 Cabo San Lucas, Mexico

 Canopy Tour in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

 Famous Folded Towels

 Sunset on the Boat ( i love my hubby)

 So funny story. In Puerto Vallarta, on the first zip line I got hit in the lip by a bee-- and my lip swelled up for the rest of the trip like this! ha ha.. wow! what and experience!

We had a wonderful, relaxing, laughable, peaceful, stressless trip! Cody and Nicole were a blast to travel with. Between the all night driving,  Eating ice cream constantly, and ping pong challenge (which Nicole and I totally kicked the boy butts 8 games to 16) :) We will forever have the memories of our trip to Mexico! I can't hardly wait to plan the next one! Now the world has stopped swaying its been hard to get back to normal life, but normal life here we come!!!

A LOVE/HATE Relationship...

5.9.11

Happy Mothers Day + another sad story!

Happy Happy Mothers Day to all the beautiful, special, amazing mothers! I have a brilliant mother! She is truly so amazing in so many ways! I am lucky to have a selfless woman in my life who I know would take my pain away in a heartbeat if she could. Who would make my dreams come true if there was a way! I am very blessed to be so loved.  Not only by my mother but also my wonderful and sweet mother-in-law! Two Amazing women in my life who I love so MUCH!!

I Love Mothers day and that fact that we get to celebrate mother all around us.  Now for my (hate) relationship with mothers day. I know that this is going to sound like a repeat post from a little earlier, but Terry and I once again found out that we were surprisingly pregnant in April again! We were so excited and I felt alot different then the first pregnancy.... I was going to be a mom and mothers day was in view for me again.....

However, On Tuesday May 3, I started cramping and spotting yet again. I went to the doctor to see what was going on. I was put through the ringer of an exam and came to determine/saw my baby and that things were okay. I had 2 positive to 1 negative.  My baby and the sac looked great, but I was unknown reason bleeding.. The doctor told me to take it easy and get some blessing and come back in a week.  I had blessings and my little sister and husband started a big fast/prayer for me! But unfortunately, the baby was taken away once again from us! This was an extremely painful, and emotional experience to have to go through YET again!! definitely worse then the first time. Nothing could touch me I was in a VERY dark place. 

On Thursday, I went back to the doctor to confirm the loss and to try to find answers. There aren't many answers, but I do have to take hormones the next time we get pregnant. It is so frustrating to be in this situation again. I mean, I know that is is my own fault, we were expecting to get pregnant again SO fast! This is the hardest thing to go through!

We are so thankful for prayers and blessing and the support of our family and friends. I am doing better, still very emotional and  having my up and downs.  It is going to be a while before this body tries to have a baby again. Both physically and emotionally!  I don't understand. I never will understand way we have to continue to go through hard ache like this! Its so so so hard to want something so bad and not knowing why you can't have it. I am getting older and now the dream is getting further way.....

Like I said.  it is such a repeat post from only three before! but this is my life and it sucks! It truly does! I am lucky to have such a sweet and passionate husband who has been going through the same pain a me!! I have put him through the ringer of emotions, mood, and tears! He is so strong and loving!


I am so excited we still have our cruise to fall on to get away from the pain and misery we have been living in! I know that we will be parents ONE day. When, I have no clue, but it will happen. For now all we can do is live life and work hard and play hard and travel and do the things we wanna do!
Thanks for reading, I am sorry for the drama posting of my life! Thanks again to everyone around us! We couldn't get through this alone!!

Lots of LOVE to everyone especially my husband!

Lots of Changes.....

4.17.2011

We have been through the ringer these last few months! I am very happy to say that we are thrilled with our new place in life and the directions we have chosen to go!  

About the first of April, Terry received a phone call about a job opportunity up in Centerville.  He met the with company and we decided it was a good place for him to grow and develop in the Graphic industry so he took the job.  5 days later we packed up our stuff from Terry's mom place and moved into a Townhouse in Farmington! I love it! it is perfect and fits us amazingly! It has been fun to get all my stuff out of storage! It feels like Christmas!

Terry is loving the new job and I am working on getting another job closer to home and praying that we are in the right place and doing the right things! I will get some pictures posted of the new place soon! I have some on my phone, but i need to bust out the camera or something! Yay for changes! :)

Thank you to all our Family and Friends for helping us move and pack up! or just for coming over and saying hi and helping us make our new place feel more like a home! Please come and visit... we LOVE visitor!!!

PS..... Less then a MONTH til our CRUISE!! I am getting SO excited!!!!! 

CRUISE 2011

Cruise: May 15-23 Mexican Riveria- need I say more??

Cruise Ship

Cabo San Lucas, Mexico

Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

Mazaltan, Mexico

One of my Favorite Places on Earth

.....and maybe where more dream come true....

Dreams Become Reality

3.7.2011

I am going to get a little personal! There has been a lot of changes in our lives over the past month. I wish this was a blog post that I have been waiting and waiting to blog about, but sadly this is the reality of life.

Terry and I got married April of 2009- Best day of my life. I was so happy to be sealed to such an amazing man. He is truly my everything. My best friend, my right hand man, my inspiration, my other half. I have been so so blessed to have such a trust worth, righteous, happy man in my life.  We have enjoyed the last 2 years together. Learn, growing, crying, loving, hoping, and enduring. A little after a year we decided that life was wonderful and we were ready for a new challenge and new little person to join our lives.

We got off birth control June 2010-

Month after month went by with nothing to speak of or get excited about! Same thing... over and over.  Terry and I were not discouraged by this. We knew there was a bigger picture and plan for us!  However, it has still been so hard over those months after months to hear "we're pregnant!" "we're going to mommy and daddy's" from every other person! I kept my head held high and knew that we would be the ones saying that one day! Don't worry there was one day I was so upset about it I went through facebook and over 37 of my friends were expecting... but still not us.

In January after being devastate one more time, I through my hand up in the air and said that I was done trying, hoping and praying for something to happened. I was so tired of putting my life on hold and pushing things aside because "I may be pregnant next month." UGH-- So, putting things aside I just lived my day to day life without worrying or stressing or thinking about having a baby!

Well....On February 21st (Monday) Terry and I found out that we were FINALLY PREGNANT!! YAY-- oh you should have seen Terry jumping around and was so so so Excited to finally get the news which we had been waiting for.  I ended up taking like 3 tests just to prove that it was real. And it was SO real! It took everything in us not to go buy the entire store of baby clothes and everything. I have to be honest. I never throw up or felt too sick. I was starving all the time though. It was so excited to see the changes and know the development of what a baby will go through to get to be with us.

On Friday March 5th, I started feeling a little cramps/stressed. I tried to take it easy and relax and put my feet up. But I just wasn't feeling "right". On Saturday morning, I woke up knowing there was something not right. I felt like I was going to start my period which I know when you are pregnant that is NOT a good thing to be feeling.  Terry had gone golfing with his friend and as the morning went on I knew that Reality was taking away our dream! I sent Terry a text that just said, "Terry, I don't think we are going to have a baby in October!" Within a few minutes Terry was right by my side. We lost our baby!

This was a moment of fear, terror, unbelief, and extreme sadness for us. The only thing I really remember is Terry holding my side and telling me to keep my head held high. Through the thick and the thin of this day, Terry has be such a constant in my life.  He held his head up high with tears streaming down his face. We know that there is a plan. We don't understand that plan but it is what we must live day in and day out! I know that I did nothing wrong to hurt my baby or to help it leave me! I was a protector and tried everything to make this pregnancy work.

Someone asked me if I was upset that I let so many people know that we were pregnant! After having a chat with my sister about this and some thing she shared with me.  This is who I am. I am a social survivor. I love to talk and share the happiest moment in our life.  Finding out we were pregnant was the happiest thing for me and Terry and we share it! Its Who We Are! and I just have to say. I have been SO SO SO blessed by so many to have a continuous support system around me. To have comments of love and prayers around us. I am so glad that we are not going through this alone!!!! Thank you so much to EVERYONE that has commented, email, text, called, and prayed for us!!!!!! We feel the love around us. I know that it is not going to be an easy battle to fight. but together Terry and I will win this battle and face many more!

Terry and I had a dream that came true.... and reality woke us up and took our little angel away from us! We know that with faith, patience, and prayer we will one day be able to return to that dream and grow a healthy, beautiful baby that will be ours!!!

I love you Terry Hiatt! I am so sorry for your loss! Thank you for standing by my side and teaching by example how to hold my head up high!!!

SUPER BOWL!!!!

2.6.11

Green Bay Packer vs. Pittsburg Steelers

We had a really fun Superbowl Party! We had about 13 people here. Balloon, food, football game, and everything! We had bets on the game. Everyone had to put in a dollar to make the bet to the closes score! Of course Mama Ruth won the 13 dollar bet. It was a really fun day. After the game we played LCR and I won the pot of money in the middle of the table. ha ha $24 dollars richer! :) yay me! We went on and played ping pong and xbox kinect. It was a long and fun day! yay for superbowls.. and funny commericals!

Jazz Game

2.2.11

This was our first Jazz Game for the season... and maybe our last! ha ha it was a fun game with our friends Bo and Brooke and Jessica and Jake! It was a good game... and very close until the Jazz lost at the buzzer by ONE point.. oh well. Its nice to get out and be with people! LETS GO JAZZ!!!!!